Chaos, drama, stress, pressure these seem to be where I thrive. At least to the outside world people would assume it is where I automatically go. In honesty it seems to be the only way I function. Nevertheless, it is not the place I enjoy. The constant anxiety. The feeling that in an instant every strategically placed card could fall destroying the dramatically designed card house I created. I hate the fear. I hate the tightness in my chest. How do I always end up in this position. Why do I fail to learn from previous mistakes? How do I stop the cycle?
It feels impossible to complete everything that needs to be done; however, still can not finish everything I started. No one can fix the situation. No one can be here to finish the projects. Alone in a world full of people. Knowing all care but knowing it is time to accept responsibility. Realization time passes, we age,there is not floating by. Do not just pretend to be the person you are, accept it, embrace it, and work with it.
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